世界一初恋

Today is not just any day, as you all may know. Today is the premier of a brand new BL anime:

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Sekai-ichi hatsukoi

(it translates to something like 'The Best First Love In The World')

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It is based on the manga with the same name, created by Shungiku Nakamura, who is also the mastermind behind the charmingly hilarious Junjou Romantica ('Pure-Hearted Romance', or something like it, first and second season subbed by AarinFantasy, google for torrents).


While waiting for the anime to be subbed, read the manga!

Thursday Thrustdown - Gray Matter

I've already warned you that these thrustdowns won't be all PWP, and now I figured I might just as well make these threats come true. We're shallow enough as it is.

You in the mood for some existentialism and/or mindfucking on top of your ordinary boy on boy fuck? I mean, ordinary fictional boy on boy fuck... or IRL fuck, what the hell do I know.
Then this is the thing for you.

Gray Matter is the philosophical work by FictionPress-author d'Neronique. He's really talented, and after two years' hiatus he's also back in business, so rejoice, oh ye ignorant! The moment of enlightenment is here.

Anyways, so Leon is this young man, who hasn't really got the same view on reality as the rest of mankind. Suddenly he finds himself in the middle of a philosophical war between the two anarchist gangs at school, and... you get mindfucked. Kinda. I guess.

I'm gonna be honest and tell you that it was ages since I last read it, but I can still remember the awesomeness of it. d'Neronique is a freaking genius, and all his work is well-written and he's just so aaaaweeesooooome.

The best would of course be if I reread it to freshen up my memory, in order to tell you about it more in-depth, but I'm a busy, busy girl and have already neglected my duties for far too long. Suffice to say that Gray Matter is good. Very good. Exceptionally good, and just as interesting, and if you are literate you will gain from reading it.

Over and out.

Movie - Ondskan (Evil)

Despite not really containing any homoerotic relationships (unless you count the ones my starved fangirl mind cooks up), the Swedish movie Evil is definitely worth watching, basically because it contains obscene amounts of battery and abuse.

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You all know I've got a penchant for young, intelligent and fairly attractive young boys engaging in violent activities, be it on the giving or the receiving end. If they on top of that has a dark and tragic past, my happiness is done.

The main character Erik Ponti is all of the above. After fucking up one too many times he is expelled from his school, the last public one in Stockholm that was willing to accept him. His mother, thinking that desperate times calls for desperate measures, sends her son to the bording school Stjärnsberg.

At Stjärnsberg, there are next to no sanctions exerted by the teachers. Instead, they practise correction through 'team spirit' - in other words, the pupils themselves hand out and execute punishments.

Erik Ponti is determined to graduate this time, in order to not cause any more trouble for his beloved mother, but his inherent honor (like, wtf?) makes it impossivble for him to silently accept injustice. He pisses off the Students' Council, and an orgy in violence and sadistic manipulation ensues, as the Council do their uttermost to break the rebel Erik.

Institutional violence seriously just makes me cream my pants, and the cock-sucker lips of Andreas Wilson, the guy playing the part of Ponti, just makes it so much better. He was made to suck dick, and I know deep down in my perverted heart that the second-in-command at the school, Dalén, thinks the exact same thing. He's just itching to bury his dick in that mouth, I tell you! It's evident the entire movie (or maybe it's not, but there's no way of knowing what goes on behind the camera, right?). I can bet that Dalén probably could think of a few other, more sexual ways, to bring Ponti to his knees - literally.

The entire movie is available on YouTube, complete with English subtitles. Watch it!

Part 1 of 11:

Premier - Thursday Thrustdown

Maybe Thrustdown is a bad name, makes it seem as though it's gonna be all about porn... It's not, though, just so you know.


Finally, almost an entire year after I first got the idea, the first Thrustdown sees the light of day. This time I'd like to recommend a piece of original fiction, namely Breaking the Mirror by Nilah E. Rose at Fictionpress.


This is not exactly a work worthy of the Nobel Prize in Literature, it's not even close, honestly. But I tell you, once you open the page and start read (and have read for a while, haha), you're gonna love it, just for the sheer amount of suffering the darling main character Jayden goes through every day.


The story is a wet dream for every angst lover out there. It's about Jayden, an adorable adolescent in Florida, who is severely abused by his father. Jayden goes through every day expecting a beating from his father and being polite to a fault, until he one day gets a new neighbour, Mr. Sexy McHotson (he might be called something else though, like Seaton. Maybe).


And no, Mr McHotson is not a guardian angel in disguise. He is harsh and rude, and thoroughly annoyed with Jayden and his polite behaviour. But they keep bumping into each other, and one thing leads to another, and maybe they'll fuck, maybe they won't, what do we know, right? Well, I know, because I've read it a couple of times, but you don't. So get to it, bitches.


There's just something about a cute boy being systematically abused, with a soul as scarred as his back, you know.


You gotta love them. Jayden is not an exception. His body is covered in scars, but what's taken the most damage is his psyche. Despite his charming exterior and endearing shy personality (with occasional outbursts of angst and anger), he only sees the image of his father and his misdoings when he looks into the mirror. He is convinced he is worthless.


Having been a teenager, I can tell that the description of how Jayden handles his situation and his emotions are fairly realistic. I've never gone through anything even close to what Jayden has, thank you, parents, but I can still relate to his reactions. Well done, Nilah E. Rose!


But I believe a warning is in order.


The story ends rather abruptly, if you can even call it an ending. It's just unexpectedly cut off when you least of all expects it. Some would call it unfinished, abandoned, but the author deems it to be indeed finished. She says that she 'felt that like trying to add it anymore, or even wrap the story up in a neat little bow, would be doing it a disservice'. I'm not sure if I agree with her, but since she is the one in charge I guess I'll just have to accept it. But yes, be warned - you will be deeply frustrated at the end of it. But the journey there is an exhilarating one, so I hope you will find it worth your while!

# 18 - Fic Tip

Right now I'm waiting for the Olympic figure skating to come on the TV, so I thought I could use my time well and tell y'all about this darling fic by The Original Psycho @ Fictionpress.com.

The story is called The Cynical Ranting of Hayden Paretski and is basically about this adorable guy who's all bitter and hates the world.

Yes, I do love him.

Hayden is just living his life, annoyed with pretty much everything, when another irritating object shows up: The new kid at school. It's a classic, yes, but if it's well-written it's a storyline I never tire of. Luckily, this is one of those well-written pieces.

Ah! The angst that resides within teenagers! Will I ever get fed up with the inner turmoil that they face every moment of their more or less petty lives? I seriously doubt it. I love how they keep denying their less-than-straightness, their moral battles ('But he's a boy! It's wrong!'), and how they finally decide that they can't resist temptation.

When I think about it, I believe what I like most about fics is how they all try to resist temptation, and howthey all fail so hard. The one reason to why I enjoyed stories where a girl dressed up as a boy was because of the inner struggle the male hero faced when he believed he might be gay. Alas! ♥

And yes, I did some ranting there myself, but the point of this is: Read the story. It's good. And I promise you you will fall in love with lovely Hayden and his contempt for humanity. Wonderful. ♥

# 15 - Fic Tip

'Sup, everybody?

As you can see, I've changed the layout! Yet again. It's made by the awesome Tiara (whose url unfortunately doesn't work), with some modifications by me. And yeah, I use Paint, so seriously, kudos to me.

Recently I've found myself in somewhat of a reading recess. Not that I read any less, it's rather that what I read isn't good enough. Dear friends, am I turning blasé? I sure hope not, because well, frankly, I have an addiction here, and if it gets harder to fulfill, I'll go batshit insane.

I do have a nice treat for y'all, though. Yes, you read it correctly, there's still hope!

Most Perfect Servant by Bickazer is an Original about Japheth, a servant. He comes from a prestigious family of servants and butlers, and has been raised since childhood to become the perfect servant. When Japheth is employed by the rich Adam, however, the young valet finds it harder and harder to separate his duty from his personal feelings. Things are further complicated by the fact that Adam is the man Japheth has sworn to kill...

Yeah, I know, I suck at recapping. But trust me, this is some good shiet!

As you all are aware of, I would never recommend to you something that didn't keep the utmost quality. Most Perfect Servant is indeed incredibly well-written, and is updated frequently. The storyline of Master and Servant is hardly new, but the twist of assassination keeps things fresh.

I think what I love most about it, though, is how the characters are portrayed. They all have so many layers, and I find it incredibly fascinating to follow the inner struggles that Japheth and the others encounter. Bickazer has really succeeded in depicting the different sides of her characters and give them dimension.

Be sure to give it a try! And if you all have any tips on good reading, please share it with me! My desperation is getting kinda ridiculous...

# 14 - Manga Suggestion

Hi everybody! Long time no see!

I've really been busy these last few weeks. With what, I don't know, considering I'm unemployed, but somehow I've found myself out of time... I guess you just get used to having too much time on your hands, so when something finally happens, you don't know how to plan in a good way.

I've had a great Christmas and New Year's Eve together with my family, and I hope your holidays' been awesome too! I was really happy to meet my siblings, we are really close, so not meeting them for 6 months has been pretty hard on me.

And speaking of hard-ons...

Dangerous Pleasure have been celebrating their kinda anniversary. 4 ½ years of spreading hot smexin' between gorgeous men to the needing fangirls! It's really admirable. Anyway, you should all check out their site, they released a batch of deliciousness for the occasion. (And then continue to check there regularly for updates, DP scanlates a lot of great BL titles. Every Saturday is when you can find fresh meat at the market.)

Part of this anniversary batch was chapter 10 of the wonderful series Yume Musubi, Koi Musubi.



I have absolutely no idea why I haven't read this before. The mangaka is Sakuragi Yaya, who also is one of the creators behind an all-time favorite of mine: Renai Kyoutei Nukegake Nashi! (scanlated by Memory For You and Peccatore-Sanctuary, available for reading online at Manga Fox.)

I'm a big fan of Sakuragi Yaya (or, at least I admire and appreciate her work a lot). She often draws ukes that are very beautiful, albeit undoubtedly masculine. Sexy, in other words. This time, though, the uke is the cute type, but it works out fine anyways~! He's perverted to make up for it... And if you prefer the fierce and stylish type, there is always the seme to drool over. He's edible, I promise.

The story is about high school student Ao, who has a wet dream about the priest at the local Shinto shrine. The dream makes him curious about how having sex with the handsome priest would be like in reality, and he is determined to find out. Ao is straight-forward, and excessively so, which makes him a welcome change from the usual innocent, cute bottoms. He is innocent, alright, but because of this he acts entirely on his urges and instincts. I find it fascinating how someone can be so perverted and so naive at the same time...

The artwork is great, the story is good even if it's not on Nobel Prize level, and overall it's just a splendid way of spending the time I have way too much of.

Over and out, dolls!